The things they taught you
they're lining up to haunt you
Sam swallowed the immediate 'no I don't', supposing that as much as his horribly persistent negative brain wanted to tell him he was useless, Vervain was right. He could write things down. That would give him more time to think of what he wanted to say and he could present it better, and might at least give the impression that he had a plan. "..Y...you're ...right. Thank you. I c-could do that."
It would help to have a project, too. Less time for his mind to beat him up.
When it came to the Gods though, he had to disagree. "If...if they h-h-had things to say I t..thought weren't tr-true, then...yes. B-but the pro..problem was that I ff-fff-found myself agreeing with them." Often, the moral concerns raised had been things he'd thought himself without any outside perspective: the voices of his concerned friends tended to echo his own rather than inform them. "I try to..to ask, but...I th-think we just see some things...d-d-differently."
Staring into the water, he wanted to say he hated it all, give in to the angry and hot flash of anger in his chest...but it wouldn't be true. "...I...li-like the bits of me that are..n..nice to people. I don't like the b..bi..bits that are weak. Pathetic. Small."
It would help to have a project, too. Less time for his mind to beat him up.
When it came to the Gods though, he had to disagree. "If...if they h-h-had things to say I t..thought weren't tr-true, then...yes. B-but the pro..problem was that I ff-fff-found myself agreeing with them." Often, the moral concerns raised had been things he'd thought himself without any outside perspective: the voices of his concerned friends tended to echo his own rather than inform them. "I try to..to ask, but...I th-think we just see some things...d-d-differently."
Staring into the water, he wanted to say he hated it all, give in to the angry and hot flash of anger in his chest...but it wouldn't be true. "...I...li-like the bits of me that are..n..nice to people. I don't like the b..bi..bits that are weak. Pathetic. Small."
You got your back against the wall
Samuel
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