I fear no monsters, for no monsters I see.
Thal's mind was too overwhelmed to pull away from Maea's gentle touch, but the current of thoughts was also too fast to allow her to fully appreciate the Ancient's words. They filtered through her head, barely catching at times. Everything was so numb. Maybe it was the cold. Maybe it was her agonizing heart.
She couldn't find the strength to respond when the silence came. What could she say? Maea was right. She'd invited Thal to the Grounds, asking for her assistance in the experiment and her haunting situation. She'd even come here when Thal had asked her to. Overall, Maea was the closest thing to a friend she'd ever had. Yet the way she ignored Thal's inputs and treated her like a spoiled child made her question whether it could be labeled as a friendship. "Tortured" might not be the right word, but "tolerated" sure seemed to fit. She couldn't put into words how she felt, but it didn't ease the aching loneliness she felt.
The fight left her as quickly as it'd come, except now she was shaking, wet with snow and a hollowness in her heart. An empty, heartless grimace appeared on her face. "Yes, ma'am. I'll be better." Despite her words, not a single one rang true. Yet she didn't care right now. Maea had done nothing but proven her point. She was wrong to call her here. They may have clarified their relationship, but it hadn't been through combative bonding. It had been through a revealing of her stance with Maea. This wasn't a friendship. It was an acquaintance. She wouldn't make that mistake again.
Standing slowly on shaking legs, her breathing slowed. Each movement was stiff with ice and detachment. She didn't look at Maea, preferring to look towards the direction of the Refuge. "We should go," she said in a flat voice, taking a sluggish step away.
She couldn't find the strength to respond when the silence came. What could she say? Maea was right. She'd invited Thal to the Grounds, asking for her assistance in the experiment and her haunting situation. She'd even come here when Thal had asked her to. Overall, Maea was the closest thing to a friend she'd ever had. Yet the way she ignored Thal's inputs and treated her like a spoiled child made her question whether it could be labeled as a friendship. "Tortured" might not be the right word, but "tolerated" sure seemed to fit. She couldn't put into words how she felt, but it didn't ease the aching loneliness she felt.
The fight left her as quickly as it'd come, except now she was shaking, wet with snow and a hollowness in her heart. An empty, heartless grimace appeared on her face. "Yes, ma'am. I'll be better." Despite her words, not a single one rang true. Yet she didn't care right now. Maea had done nothing but proven her point. She was wrong to call her here. They may have clarified their relationship, but it hadn't been through combative bonding. It had been through a revealing of her stance with Maea. This wasn't a friendship. It was an acquaintance. She wouldn't make that mistake again.
Standing slowly on shaking legs, her breathing slowed. Each movement was stiff with ice and detachment. She didn't look at Maea, preferring to look towards the direction of the Refuge. "We should go," she said in a flat voice, taking a sluggish step away.
because all this time the monster has been me.
THALASSA