the blood you bleed is just the blood you owe

when the world turns upside down, you should blame it on me

She wraps her arms around herself, to hug herself and his hands twitch at his sides for the need to break the space – space that he had requested as he tries to hear beneath the words she gives him, tries to hear the meaning beneath them. “You already are someone who won’t break.” He tells her quietly, a small weak smile crossing his face. Because if she had, it would have been far quicker to get her where he had wanted her – to keep her there, and he’d found that he had a hard time trying to make her do anything.

But she turns back to him, and he keeps his gaze along the pale lines of her face, watching. To be more like him, to become better at trusting, maybe he won’t let her down when he knows that he will. And he has to force himself to take a deep breath and look to the lighthouse again, contemplating. Would it? With this break he’d already drilled into his head the possibility that maybe she’d spend a few nights in someone else’s bed, to lean on someone else for a while when he’s not around.

And he finds that he’s okay with that. Because he’d already told her his thoughts, a bandaid to fix the problem. And he had used so many bandaids recently – each bed a different form of one. So he sighs quietly though his nose, gaze drifting back down to her and not even knowing where to start really. “Maea…” He pauses, searching her face. It would be the same agreement he had with Hotaru. But they had been open to sleep with whomever they wanted in between… He doesn’t think Maea could handle that.

“What are you terms then?” He asks, head tilting a small amount. “What do you expect of me to do? Because there’s been a few different ways I’ve done this.” He’s not exactly proud to admit it, but again his honesty shines through. And he won't let terminology and agreements bring him down again as they once had.

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