even my darkness shines for you
"I love you too. And I absolutely couldn't tell," he whispers against Remi's lips with a grin, fully aware of the questing fingers that are sneaking beneath the hem of his boxers. Ronin doesn't need to say it in return, he doesn't think; partially because the other man is privy to his emotions with just the touch of a finger, but also the way said boxers are starting to tent a bit is a dead giveaway.
And so, naturally, Ronin cockblocks himself. And he's not even mad about it - conversations like this are what saved their marriage, and he's never going to choose sex over knowing the truth of Remi's thoughts. Especially about something like this. So as the other man speaks his mind, Ronin closes his eyes to listen; it helps, he finds, to anchor himself to this man he loves so dearly, and not to any of the chaos that orbits around him from what's happened.
"Tell me about it?" he invites softly, shifting to draw Remi across and into his lap, that he might pull the blankets up around his husband's shoulders. "What's done is done, that's true. And you're sorry for it, and you're living with the consequences. So if it's difficult now, I want to be here for you. I can't help you back from the cliff's edge if I'm pretending not to see it as well."
And so, naturally, Ronin cockblocks himself. And he's not even mad about it - conversations like this are what saved their marriage, and he's never going to choose sex over knowing the truth of Remi's thoughts. Especially about something like this. So as the other man speaks his mind, Ronin closes his eyes to listen; it helps, he finds, to anchor himself to this man he loves so dearly, and not to any of the chaos that orbits around him from what's happened.
"Tell me about it?" he invites softly, shifting to draw Remi across and into his lap, that he might pull the blankets up around his husband's shoulders. "What's done is done, that's true. And you're sorry for it, and you're living with the consequences. So if it's difficult now, I want to be here for you. I can't help you back from the cliff's edge if I'm pretending not to see it as well."
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