maybe who we were then is shattered, but who we are in the end is what matters
It's not unexpected that he doesn't understand, or even sees those traits and desires as negative - though she won't put words in his mouth - but it still inspires a familiar ache. Even Deimos, who loves her as close to unconditionally as anyone can, has never quite understood why she seeks it. Why it calls to her. In some ways, Flora following in her footsteps gives her a sense of kinship knowing there's at least one other person in the world who sees the appeal of the things that motivate her.
"It is. But for my entire life it never changed - now I don't know what else might even exist to fill that space." All she can conceive of are the boring, mundane things others fill their days with. Things Hotaru has always looked down upon, no matter how unfairly.
Tal's second question is equally difficult, and she remains quiet for a long time before slowly, hesitantly forming her answer. "You, Flora and Deimos. Alys." Perhaps Sunjata recently, but things are still so fragile that she hasn't let herself think about their friendship beyond the present. And she has gone on all of one date with George. Hotaru doesn't exactly have friends aside from those already mentioned. "The Academy." Shaking her head slightly she exhales hard, frustrated with herself. "But that's it. And I already attend to it so much I've been told to vacation." From Deimos of all people. So how can she possibly make changes that will fulfill her when she's already leaning on the few things that get her out of bed?
"It is. But for my entire life it never changed - now I don't know what else might even exist to fill that space." All she can conceive of are the boring, mundane things others fill their days with. Things Hotaru has always looked down upon, no matter how unfairly.
Tal's second question is equally difficult, and she remains quiet for a long time before slowly, hesitantly forming her answer. "You, Flora and Deimos. Alys." Perhaps Sunjata recently, but things are still so fragile that she hasn't let herself think about their friendship beyond the present. And she has gone on all of one date with George. Hotaru doesn't exactly have friends aside from those already mentioned. "The Academy." Shaking her head slightly she exhales hard, frustrated with herself. "But that's it. And I already attend to it so much I've been told to vacation." From Deimos of all people. So how can she possibly make changes that will fulfill her when she's already leaning on the few things that get her out of bed?
