SAMUEL
i am the ocean, crawling madly at your moon.
and with one wanton whoop — Though Zeph did not react particularly explosively or perhaps in a way fitting to his confession, Sam could at least tell by the change in the atmosphere that this time, he had been believed. He pressed his lips together, clung to his own arms and stared at the floor, sure that now the rejection and disgust was coming. It had been delayed, but he was sure he'd hear the door slam soon, Zeph leaving--
He looked up at the pacing and authoritative tone, surprised and yet not at the same time, his paranoia and his sensible mind both there somewhere. "I...even if you could sort things out in Torchline, I can't just leave the Grounds. It's complicated, with the Ascended and the Voice. I have to stay and fight." Sam's voice wavered a little: he really, really didn't want to, still thought it was a bad idea as he had when they'd first discussed it, but he couldn't afford to annoy his Goddess any further. "Besides...I don't know where Amalia is, or Ronin for that matter, and both of them don't like me very much. Maybe even want me to be dead." He squeezed his arms, looked up with a smile that was meant to be reassuring. "You don't have to fix my messes, Zeph. I appreciate it, but...I got myself into this." — i melt into a sycophantic soup, & all that's left to do, is giggle, fawn, and swoon. |
no emotion that's worth having
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Age: 35 | Height: 5' 5" | Race: Ascended | Nationality: Natural | Citizenship: Hollowed Grounds Level: 10 - Strg: 28 - Dext: 25 - Endr: 27 - Luck: 25 - Int: 1 MIA - Regular - Ragdoll Cat
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01-28-2021, 08:04 PM
Smuggler✓ / Guildmaster
Age: 42 | Height: 5'10 | Race: Accepted | Nationality: Natural | Citizenship: Torchline Level: 5 - Strg: 25 - Dext: 19 - Endr: 26 - Luck: 10 - Int: KI - Regular - Panther Chamelon
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02-02-2021, 03:49 PM
Zeph
Ugh, idealism. "Why?" you ask Red, turning back to fix him with a that's-fucking-stupid glare. "Why'd you gotta fight? Why's any'a this yer problem?" Seriously- if the gods wanted to duke shit out on a cosmic scale, why'd every damn Joe Schmo gotta be dragged into it? You rake a hand through your curls, clearly irate at this nonsense.
At least here's a problem you can kind of fix. "Neither'a 'em been seen in Torchline fer months," you tell Sam, your hand now moving to rub your neck. "Remi's off in th'woods, an' 'sides, th'Biter's in charge now an' I'm sure he's done worse." Seriously. You don't know what, but you'd believe it. Again you begin to pace, arms across your chest. "An' you told me Wessex was gonna kill ya a'fore- what makes y'safer here, where she's head bitch?" Clearly you're annoyed. Your voice is clipped, your strides loud, your brow furrowed into a deepening frown. This whole damn situation is shit, and if it's too late to save James from his mistakes you can at least attempt to keep Sam from ruining his life. At last you lean against a wall, not looking at Sam but instead at the ceiling. "Gods, Red- I'm tryin'a help ya. Why can't y'just let yerself live for yerself, just once?" you're not a bad person for the ways you tried to kill your sadness
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02-02-2021, 09:55 PM
Smuggler✓ / Guildmaster
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02-05-2021, 06:01 PM
Zeph
You didn't exactly yell, but it's certainly about as close to it as you've come in a good while. And as you fume against the bookshelf you can tell that Sam is uncomfortable, arms wrapped around himself and voice wavering. Damn it all, but it seems so fucking stupid in your eyes. You want to grab the boy and shake him for not accepting your offer, for not leaving all the stupid obligations and messy risk-of-death situations he's wrapped himself up in behind.
You step towards him, hand outstretched-- --and place it heavily on his shoulder, dropping your head and closing your eyes as you come face-to-face with the Ascended once again. "Fine, Red. I ain't gonna push it." Wearily you shake your head, your dark almond eyes looking for his. "But y'ain't alone in this, so don' take it all on yerself. Y'ain't my responsibility, but y'are my friend. An' Torchers, we look out for our crews. Stand by 'em. Right?" you're not a bad person for the ways you tried to kill your sadness
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02-08-2021, 02:43 PM
Smuggler✓ / Guildmaster
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The temptation to whisk him back to the portal grows stronger by the minute; you have to swallow down the urge, to remind yourself that he's an adult and not the sixteen year old who made a stupid choice. Coulda shoulda woulda's never helped anyone.
"I'll expect ya then." Y'know how people sound when they're trying very hard to say something with absolute confidence, even though they're not absolutely confident in it? You don't sound like that. You sound absolutely convinced that this visit is going to happen, and your smile seconds the notion, crookedly convinced and assured as it is. you're not a bad person for the ways you tried to kill your sadness
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02-11-2021, 10:28 PM
Smuggler✓ / Guildmaster
Age: 42 | Height: 5'10 | Race: Accepted | Nationality: Natural | Citizenship: Torchline Level: 5 - Strg: 25 - Dext: 19 - Endr: 26 - Luck: 10 - Int: KI - Regular - Panther Chamelon
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02-17-2021, 02:42 PM
Zeph
You turn your smile up a notch as his wanes, as though to force some light against the darkness that peers through the windows of the shop. Yes, you will see him; yes, it will all be sorted; yes, this is insanity, but it is temporary.
And of course you agree to let him bite you, awkward though it may be. And of course it is awkward, but you're used to it now, adjusting your boner and not meeting his eyes as he sends waves of bizarre desire through your system. Then there's tea to drink, and small talk to make, and eventually the long trip home to get started on. The moment you leave the shop your expression falls and darkens. "Fuckin' fuck," you find yourself muttering, tightening your coat around your shoulders and glaring at the sky. "Fuckin' fuck fucks, Red, don' you fuckin' die." {fin} you're not a bad person for the ways you tried to kill your sadness | |||
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