Beneath the Strawberry Moon

Jigano began his answer with a rhetorical question and then a lot of preamble, so Sam didn't have high hopes. Immediately he felt embarrassed for asking, hugging himself and trying to look as if he were just casually watching Isuma and Mia. The point about Remi...well. Sam, or at least, this Sam had never experienced Remi considering him attractive, and nowhere in his diaries had he actually written Remi had called him handsome. Still, he smiled weakly, knowing Jigano was likely trying to be nice. "It's just...I've been doing a lot of thinking. About what happened with Remi, and me, and relationships in general, and speaking about marriage just now reminded me." He loosened his posture and took another sip of tea but still did not meet Jigano's eyes. "And I realised I had no perception of whether I was attractive or not. As a child Evie was always the 'pretty' sibling, so I assumed I had to be ugly. But...sometimes, I see myself, and I actually don't mind my face." This was whispered as if it were a terrible, shameful secret. "I suppose I just want someone who isn't biased to tell me, but I suppose you are biased by being my friend..hm. I also find it difficult because I don't know what I am attracted to. I think you have lovely hair and a good nose, but I do not find you um..romantically attractive." He laughed a little nervously as if Jigano might take offence. "..I'm rambling, I'm sorry. It's just when there's something in my head, I go over it from so many angles that it takes over."{/b} Samuel He took a step but then felt tired He said, I'll rest a little while But when he tried to walk again He wasn't a child