Love Everlasting

Roana smiled, shoulders sinking in a bit of relief as the goddess waved off her apology. ”I appreciate that, Safrin, thank you.” she said. At least that was something she could put to rest in the past, and move forward without it hindering her. But her words upon releasing her hand felt more like a stab wound than any real wound she had ever received. The former Captain swallowed silently, as a whirlwind of emotions rushed through her. He wasn’t here. He never was. Would he ever be? People still appeared every day, should she wait? Should she spend her life pining after a man who might never exist in the same world as her again? Loving and living for a person who only existed in dreams and illusions and planes of existence beyond her mortal reach? Was that actually living though, or just existing? Was that really fair to her boys, her precious sons who really deserved a father to play with, to adventure with, to teach them what she could not about being a man as they grew? Briefly her mind drifted to her former captain counterpart, one of her only friends left in this world. How kind he was to her, how good he was with her boys. Was she allowed to…to want again? Even while her heart broke for one man could she really be so selfish to pine for another, and one who still pined for his lost love? ”Thank you, Safrin.” she said, opening tear filled eyes, all while smiling. ”It…it is not the news I wanted to hear but…it puts things into a better perspective.” her hand was quick to rise and wipe at her eyes, desperate to maintain an appearance of strength, even though it was certainly clear to one of the divine that inside she was conflicted and crumbling. Roana struggled to remember that she was only human, and that she sometimes needed to crash and break down. roana The soul that sees beauty may sometimes walk alone