LUSEA
i could recognize him by touch alone, by smell
i would know him blind,
Um, no. I'm not going to say it for him, not gonna give him the easy way out. He wanted this, he did this, and he gets to live with the whole damn thing, to spell out the sordid details of what he's done, to admit to his fucking weakness.
That's right, weakness. He's soft- this place, that girl, they've made him soft, but I'm still made of steel.
The thing is, I don't expect hearing him say it to hurt as much as it does. I don't know why- of course it hurts, to learn that even after dying for him and then fucking coming back, I am somehow not enough. That he would drag his sick and sorry ass off to her, when I'm the one who's stitched up every wound. That years of loyalty apparently amount to nothing when a pretty little blond gets involved.
"And how was it, hmm, screwing the midwife? Was it incredible? Mind-blowing? Earth shattering? 'Cus you'd better believe it's changed your fucking life."
I don't look at him. I don't give him that. But if he looks at me he'll see me smiling, feral and shattered, teeth bared behind a curled lip despite the tears in my eyes.
That's right, weakness. He's soft- this place, that girl, they've made him soft, but I'm still made of steel.
The thing is, I don't expect hearing him say it to hurt as much as it does. I don't know why- of course it hurts, to learn that even after dying for him and then fucking coming back, I am somehow not enough. That he would drag his sick and sorry ass off to her, when I'm the one who's stitched up every wound. That years of loyalty apparently amount to nothing when a pretty little blond gets involved.
"And how was it, hmm, screwing the midwife? Was it incredible? Mind-blowing? Earth shattering? 'Cus you'd better believe it's changed your fucking life."
I don't look at him. I don't give him that. But if he looks at me he'll see me smiling, feral and shattered, teeth bared behind a curled lip despite the tears in my eyes.
i would know him in death,
at the end of the world
SUNJATA
