the crooked kind

Was he fine? It was so hard to say. The passion that had led to his rally against his restraints and had urged the tears from his eyes was now utterly and completely gone. Like remembering a time so long ago that you no longer recreate the emotions that the memory would inspire, Remi knew why he'd been upset. He knew why losing the feelings he had for Loren was a terrible and devastating thing. He just didn't feel like it was. At Rexanna's inhale, Remi's pale eyes rose to gently scour her once again to ensure that she was alright. Likely they'd both be a little sort from the binding, but physically at least it didn't seem as though Frey had done any damage. Shaking his head with his own gentle sigh, Remi shrugged. "No..the last time it..." Closing his eyes, Remi tried to focus. "It was not like that at all. I am so sorry—" He began, opening his eyes and offering the sapphire-eyed woman an apologetic smile. "The deity seemed to only be interested in sex which is why I—" Again Remi trailed off and shrugged a bit miserably. "—I had just thought to clarify. We do not have beings like this where I came from. I didn't know that it would.." Remi's lip should have tumbled. His tears should have begun anew, but instead he just sighed with an empty sadness. "I did not know that we would be punished for my ignorance. Are you alright?" As she asked after what she might do, Remi ran a hand through his curls and shook his head. "What it said it wanted was precisely what it took. I am not sure how to satisfy what it wants given how I—" He was going to say feel, but that wasn't quite right. Curling his fingers into a fist, Remi tried to reach deep within himself and remember what it was to be in love with Loren. But of course there was nothing. "Where we came from I could never act on my feelings openly. It was only ... well, just before we were pulled here that I actually told Loren how I felt. That I loved him." Wearily Remi chuckled. "I had thought being in this new place would be different. And now that it is, I feel nothing." remi Trying to teach my common sense to not waver with my confidence