The pit | I fell in the pit

The lion's back bristled. Vai was right. She was always right, but then Remi wasn't actually disagreeing. He was just hiding. Slowly the body of the beast began to shake slightly, but not from the cold or the rain. Deep within its ferocious and primal mind, Remi truly was breaking down. He wanted to give up so badly, to just stay like this until something finally took him over, whether it be death or the creature in its entirety. You can't do this forever No, the alchemist agreed, closing the lion's eyes. With a gruesome shudder, the lion's body fully contorted this time, leaving the alchemist barely clothed and covered in mud and the dried blood of his mother and likely a bit of Ronin's and his own as well. Wrapping his arms around his legs, Remi placed his head against his knees and tried to take a steadying breath. Every now and then his fingers would flex into claws and the hair on his head would grow tawny and long rather than curled, but for the most part the alchemist was able to maintain his shape. With arms trembling, Remi finally looked up. The grey sky overhead made it hard to focus on the dark shape that was Vai, and he had to narrow his eyes against the brightness and the falling rain. Inhaling shakily, his throat contracting with a sob that desperately wanted to escape, Remi felt his face crumble. "I killed her." remi roar