Secret Keeper

Phoebe had a little frown on her face as Remi spoke to her, for a number of reasons. The first being his experience. He spoke of passion and what it was like with such confidence it made her a bit jealous. She so badly wished to know what that was like, to feel strongly about someone in more than a platonic, friendly manner. To want to want – a seemingly inescapable circular pattern wrapped in a vortex of self-doubt. That was what it felt like to her anyways. The second was the pointed way he looked at her and the claims he made about this quest of hers. She looked down, wringing her skirt in her hands. She did see his point when it was laid out like that. But…it was from his perspective, from the viewpoint of someone who had been in love, who had experienced passion, who knew how to put themselves out there. “I…Remi if I did this at my own leisure I don’t think I would ever find anyone.” She admitted quietly. “Not because I think I am completely unwantable but…because I wouldn’t put myself out there. I wouldn’t seem available and I wouldn’t be looking for the signs…you said it yourself that I am oblivious.” She said, glancing up at him. “I don’t want to be alone and this is giving me a reason not to be. The end-goal is sex but the journey there is about so much more for me.” Her voice was hardly above a whisper now as she spoke. Frey had said her first time should be with someone she loved, and this quest was about putting herself out there and finding it in a way. She nodded at his request to not be the reason she sought out more information. Phoebe was smart enough to know that asking favors from a deity regarding a person they didn’t care for was probably not wise unless she knew exactly how to interact with them. At this point, she had just enough information to be dangerous and she was cautious about making a misstep. But his agreement to help her find a boyfriend brightened her up. Phoebe smiled and laughed a bit at his comment. ”That sounds like something my brother might’ve said.” she said, trying not to think on how she missed him. Truly, it seemed Remi was on the fast track to being more like her brother than just a friend, and it comforted her to know it. ”So…what do I do now?” Phoebe In a gentle way, you can shake the world