For every joy, there is a price to be paid.
The only thing that is humiliating is helplessness.
ABASI
Usually, when Abasi heard of unfairness or cruelty, when he saw something unjust, he was able to judge it from a distant sort of place; he was used to matters of politics where the people had to be pawns in the game and nothing else - which is why as Loren confirmed he had indeed been tortured, not just once but many times, he was surprised to feel what could only be described as an emotional punch in his gut. Anger, sadness, and an intense need to comfort.
Without a word he stood and went to kneel before Loren in his chair, gently putting his hands over the other man's tense ones on his mug. He had no idea what he was doing, but thought only to continue his physical affection from earlier - it felt natural. Gently he stroked the edge of Loren's hand with his thumb.
"I can only hope to...apologise, if any of my words or actions brought this to mind for you." He began, knowing that it likely wasn't a coincidence this was coming up after their last conversation. "I also want you to know I..." He paused, considering his words. This was far more difficult than repeating scripture or trying to justify his past - this was in the moment, words with a responsibility to make Loren feel better. "...obviously do not believe you deserved any of that. And I will do everything I can to stop you from taking it again. I promise this to you."
Without a word he stood and went to kneel before Loren in his chair, gently putting his hands over the other man's tense ones on his mug. He had no idea what he was doing, but thought only to continue his physical affection from earlier - it felt natural. Gently he stroked the edge of Loren's hand with his thumb.
"I can only hope to...apologise, if any of my words or actions brought this to mind for you." He began, knowing that it likely wasn't a coincidence this was coming up after their last conversation. "I also want you to know I..." He paused, considering his words. This was far more difficult than repeating scripture or trying to justify his past - this was in the moment, words with a responsibility to make Loren feel better. "...obviously do not believe you deserved any of that. And I will do everything I can to stop you from taking it again. I promise this to you."
If his heart rules him,
his conscience will soon take the place of the rod.
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