And I won't regret the lives I didn't lead
I knew you, I loved you
The first sentence of Remi's explanation, 'he let me fall in love with him', nearly made Sam give up on listening to the rest (as if that were Loren's fault) but he kept paying attention out of curiosity about Loren's life. As it turned out, it was good he did; when Remi had finished he felt immensely different about it.
He did not think Loren a bad person for any of this (really, it was pretty similar to things he'd done minus the...orgasm quest), knew how easy it was to get lost when everything was swirling to shit around you - but more important, his heart began to truly bleed for Remi, see how painful the unfortunate sequence of events had been.
Was it really any one persons fault? No. Had anyone meant to hurt him? No, or at least, he hadn't on his part.
It had still happened though and Remi was right to feel wronged, even if they could dispute the details. After a moment of quiet, Sam just nodded, lifted his head to lean forward on his knees and said quietly: "I'm glad you found Ronin. That he treats you better than either me or Loren could. We failed you...we really did." Oddly, he found the usual panic was gone, the upset that bubbled in him whenever he had to deal with difficult conversations - oh, his chest hurt and he felt tears a second away, but he was able to speak clearly, think with a surprising amount of clarity.
He did not think Loren a bad person for any of this (really, it was pretty similar to things he'd done minus the...orgasm quest), knew how easy it was to get lost when everything was swirling to shit around you - but more important, his heart began to truly bleed for Remi, see how painful the unfortunate sequence of events had been.
Was it really any one persons fault? No. Had anyone meant to hurt him? No, or at least, he hadn't on his part.
It had still happened though and Remi was right to feel wronged, even if they could dispute the details. After a moment of quiet, Sam just nodded, lifted his head to lean forward on his knees and said quietly: "I'm glad you found Ronin. That he treats you better than either me or Loren could. We failed you...we really did." Oddly, he found the usual panic was gone, the upset that bubbled in him whenever he had to deal with difficult conversations - oh, his chest hurt and he felt tears a second away, but he was able to speak clearly, think with a surprising amount of clarity.
Let that be all that I need
SAMUEL
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