You've been all the way to broken
lost your sense of where to go
Her bright, easy response is something to simultaneously revel in and cringe away from. Feeling unworthy of that simplistic response, that beautiful expression. Everything still feels raw and tainted, and Harper has no way of combatting it. Nowhere to go but down, deeper into this grief that has been drudged up so fully. Instead of responding verbally - he's not certain he even can - Harper merely smiles.
Harper loops an arm around Auni companionably, weathering Kiada's surprise with a vague, detached amusement on his face. Many had exhibited the same reaction, completely bogled that not only had Phoebe forsaken her life's work, but that the distressingly young woman had instead taken up the role of running a brothel. Harper isn't expecting her to ask his opinion though. Had anticipated fielding questions about Phoebe if she'd asked anything at all.
An uncomfortable shrug of his shoulders precludes his answer. Trying in vain to find...something. Anything in this cavernous pit inside him that speaks of an opinion, an emotion. But he feels nothing about having moved so suddenly. "It's her decision. The rest is just..." hand waving idly, aware it's not much of an answer, but there's a helplessness in his gaze. Harper doesn't have any other response, too numb to it all to care.
Harper loops an arm around Auni companionably, weathering Kiada's surprise with a vague, detached amusement on his face. Many had exhibited the same reaction, completely bogled that not only had Phoebe forsaken her life's work, but that the distressingly young woman had instead taken up the role of running a brothel. Harper isn't expecting her to ask his opinion though. Had anticipated fielding questions about Phoebe if she'd asked anything at all.
An uncomfortable shrug of his shoulders precludes his answer. Trying in vain to find...something. Anything in this cavernous pit inside him that speaks of an opinion, an emotion. But he feels nothing about having moved so suddenly. "It's her decision. The rest is just..." hand waving idly, aware it's not much of an answer, but there's a helplessness in his gaze. Harper doesn't have any other response, too numb to it all to care.
remember, pain is just an anchor
that you never had control of
HARPER
