(SE) so we light up (O)

you should know, that i'm a ticking time bomb

and you're getting close

It was strange how a stranger could give you everything you needed in such a simple phrase. That it’s okay to not know what he wants to do. That it’s okay if he simply just… Wasn’t okay. And he didn’t know what to do with it, that confirmation, that acceptance that felt like he did have a moment to choose and simply learn. That nobody would judge him except for himself.

It has him pressing into Vai’s embrace a bit more as she turns to face him a bit more fully — a motherly embrace he hasn’t had for years. Nearly ten now, to be exact. And it’s that thought paired with the idea he might be able to do exactly what she says that has him collapsing a bit more internally. Because by being himself, he’s the opposite of everything he’s grown into. By being who he was, he’d trade the masks and sharp edges for honesty and softness. And he can’t do that, doesn’t know how to revert, doesn’t want to revert. “I’ll try.” He manages instead, burying his face a bit more, muffled as he takes a haggard breath. Not even knowing where to start, where to begin. It was daunting.

so better watch your step, because i'm about to blow

and where the pieces land i guess we'll never know

SuNJATA