HARPER
Part of him vindictively wants to ask if she didn't like this side of him. If she wants to say she still wants to be with him, when she's never had the chance or cared to see beneath to the darkness that he has tried so hard to lock away. "You're saying you knew it would bother me, and said it anyway? Why? Phoebe that is cruel. I just told you about my dead fiancée and you chose a topic that you know has, at the very least, exasperated me in the past. You picked that instead of talking about the weather, or recent funny gossip? More positive things?" He won't let it go, won't let her hide away behind 'good intentions' when she had picked a topic she knew was somewhere on the negative scale, even if she thought it wasn't as bad.
"I'm not calling you stupid, I've never once said that. But you've never asked me about my medical knowledge. You've only ever rolled your eyes and called my worries and concerns over age gaps ridiculous. I'm not saying you're stupid, I'm saying you don't seem at all intent on being open-minded enough to change your world view, that you don't respect how uncomfortable it makes me. You want me to change how I feel instead of trying to understand me." He can't help how his eyes go damp, always the type of man to be an angry crier. But regardless of how frustrated and upset he is with her in this moment, he knows she won't look down on him for expressing himself. It's a safety net that allows them to argue like this.
"Your desire may be genuine, but can you imagine how it feels for me? To want to protect you from this man who you say you don't let yourself be alone around, and yet only be a few years younger than him myself? To know how young and reckless and far from mature I was at nineteen?" Voice turning slightly desperate, because she has never expressed wanting to understand his side and he needs her to so badly in this moment. Sighing heavily, he unclenches his hand and rubs over his face, feeling burdened and tired. "I know I hide more than you'd like. But I always thought I was more open than anyone else. I just...there's so much I can't say or bring up without tripping these wires."
"I'm not calling you stupid, I've never once said that. But you've never asked me about my medical knowledge. You've only ever rolled your eyes and called my worries and concerns over age gaps ridiculous. I'm not saying you're stupid, I'm saying you don't seem at all intent on being open-minded enough to change your world view, that you don't respect how uncomfortable it makes me. You want me to change how I feel instead of trying to understand me." He can't help how his eyes go damp, always the type of man to be an angry crier. But regardless of how frustrated and upset he is with her in this moment, he knows she won't look down on him for expressing himself. It's a safety net that allows them to argue like this.
"Your desire may be genuine, but can you imagine how it feels for me? To want to protect you from this man who you say you don't let yourself be alone around, and yet only be a few years younger than him myself? To know how young and reckless and far from mature I was at nineteen?" Voice turning slightly desperate, because she has never expressed wanting to understand his side and he needs her to so badly in this moment. Sighing heavily, he unclenches his hand and rubs over his face, feeling burdened and tired. "I know I hide more than you'd like. But I always thought I was more open than anyone else. I just...there's so much I can't say or bring up without tripping these wires."
let your faith be bigger than your fear
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