Bad Luck Bears

phoebe Sleep and I shall soothe you, calm you, and annoint you Phoebe stood there quietly as he spoke, unsurprised when he said he didn't know why she was upset. What did surprise her was his admission that she was right about his motives. Surprised enough that her eyes widened to hear him say it. All this fuss, all this upset, and now he admitted she was right. Her brows furrowed slightly but she wouldn't interrupt him. When he said his peice she roughly wiped at her eyes to dry them, though they were quickly replaced with more. Her heart was aching and for reasons she didn't think he would understand. Or care about frankly. "I really don't care if that is what you want to do. Really, truly I don't." she said with a few little quick inhales of air. Hyperventilation was always a difficult thing to stop once it started. "But I don't think you understand the danger that acting in the name of a god or goddess without knowing what they want puts people in. It's one thing to risk yourself but in organizing this way without knowing you put everyone who follows you at risk." she said, fairly calmly given her emotional state. "And if my friends really do prescribe to what you preach...then I worry for them. And you. And everyone. It is dangerous to tamper with these gods. I've seen the suffering it can cause." Phoebe turned and walked over to a countertop, using a rag there to dry her face. "And I am upset because you've made me realize that what I thought was a task was a curse all the same as what others have been cursed with. My friend approached a deity, not knowing their nature well and for it had their love and passion taken away. I did the same...and they sent me out looking for such a passion with someone...but knowing that person doesn't exist." Her voice hitched as she said it. The reality of the situation was all too powerful in that moment. She turned back to face him, her expression pained and worried. "I just don't want to see anyone else hurt for lack of caution and respect of the powers that are beyond us." It wasn't a criticism of him, per se, she was just deeply worried of what might happen if this Safrin was offended by his choices in her name. Phoebe dropped her gaze to the ground. "But what I say doesn't matter. I'm just a stupid girl. That is all you think of me. It's all anyone thinks of me."