Bad Luck Bears

phoebe Sleep and I shall soothe you, calm you, and annoint you Too young for him. Someone her own age. All pretty words for the same thing. The man who sought sex however he could get it didn't want her. And not just because they had argued - that she could have coped with fine. But her age? Which also led to her appearance and simply who she was as a person...all things she couldn't change without serious difficulty if at all. "No one here is my age." she said flatly. Everyone she had met so far was older than her, which she didn't consider an issue. But apparently it was. His story, while possibly true, felt painfully contrived in the moment. But she didn't interrupt. "I am glad you had that experience...but that doesn't mean I will. Both my sisters were already married with their first child at my age. I'm..." she stopped and shook her head, looking at the ground. "Thank you for trying to make me feel better. But I see no point in wishing for what obviously will not come to pass. It is like continuing to do something, knowing the outcome but expecting it to be different. Insanity, stupidity, self-inflicted suffering." she paused, swallowing a lump in her throat. Koel didn't even know or care she existed. Bastien thought she was a child. Remi liked men. Ru'in didn't seem the sort to really want anyone around, much less a significant other. Ronin was as good as married. Every man she met there seemed to be some reason it would never work. What other conclusion was there, if not that she would remain unwanted? "I'll see if I can find something to get the door off its hinges." she said quietly, moving passed him. Her energy was gone. The vibrancy she usually had, vanished. She was more a shadow of herself than anything as she searched through the drawers in her cabinets for something to help get the door open again.