waiting in the dark

REMI

the lullaby

Every now and then the things
I lean on lose their meaning

The light is sucked out of the world like a breath held before a verdict. Much as the Lullaby loathes Safrin, even he is too tense and unbalanced to take too much pleasure in the scolding handing down to her. Remi watches the display with as much silent respect as he can. Still, he bristles as Safrin tries to pivot the situation, making him seem deserving of all the blame. He was entitled to some of it to be sure, but the picture Safrin painted made his teeth clench and grind against one another as he struggled for silence.

And when she turned to him? The words were bright on his tongue. Words he could never say, couldn't even think. And so despite what she'd likely think it meant, whatever victory she took from it, Remi forced his eyes away from her.

Eventually, when Safrin was gone and it was only he and the God of Life again did Remi find himself able to breathe. "I don't...intend for Ronin to be a crutch." He offers, for there was some truth in what Safrin had to say, loathe as he was to admit it. "But no one deserves to be hurt if I.." Remi had once been the paradigm of self-control and restraint. Gods, how far he'd fallen.

..lose control."

And I find myself careening in places
where I should not let me go

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