Darling please, just give us some time, and I swear we'll be alright
Hotaru holds herself still, patient and yielding as he scans her face. He won't find anything there to lead him one way or the other, but he won't chase her away with his silence either. It's no easy question. In fact Hotaru would discredit any response he gave immediately simply due to the nature of the question itself. Nobody ever really knows if they're prepared to be a parent. The lucky ones plan it, and even they cannot be fully prepared. But a peek into his thought process is at least a start.
When he finally speaks, she is not surprised by his answer. Her thumb continues to gently stroke at the unmarred skin beneath her hand, refusing to let any physical sign be misconstrued as withdrawing away from him or the topic at hand. Whatever he has to say, whether in agreement with Nate or not, it is safe here with her.
"I would say that what we all saw couldn't be more perfect proof that you are incapable of ever becoming like him." For all the vitriol of the words themselves, it is spoken with a firm but understanding tone. Finally her careful mask melts a little, a small smile warming her eyes. "We all make mistakes, and as parents we agonize over them all the more. But mistakes do not a monster make. You are a good man, Sunjata. You aren't capable of turning into something like him." Hotaru does not even give the man the respect of calling him someone. He is more creature than human in her eyes. "And if you wanted children, I wouldn't hesitate in giving them to you. And I would never bring a child into this world if I was not completely sure their father would care for them in the right way." A roundabout assurance of her trust in him. If Hotaru had found him lacking in any way, she'd sooner kill him than bear his child. Her previous lovers had failed in their duties across the board, but they had never been bad men. That was the important part.
When he finally speaks, she is not surprised by his answer. Her thumb continues to gently stroke at the unmarred skin beneath her hand, refusing to let any physical sign be misconstrued as withdrawing away from him or the topic at hand. Whatever he has to say, whether in agreement with Nate or not, it is safe here with her.
"I would say that what we all saw couldn't be more perfect proof that you are incapable of ever becoming like him." For all the vitriol of the words themselves, it is spoken with a firm but understanding tone. Finally her careful mask melts a little, a small smile warming her eyes. "We all make mistakes, and as parents we agonize over them all the more. But mistakes do not a monster make. You are a good man, Sunjata. You aren't capable of turning into something like him." Hotaru does not even give the man the respect of calling him someone. He is more creature than human in her eyes. "And if you wanted children, I wouldn't hesitate in giving them to you. And I would never bring a child into this world if I was not completely sure their father would care for them in the right way." A roundabout assurance of her trust in him. If Hotaru had found him lacking in any way, she'd sooner kill him than bear his child. Her previous lovers had failed in their duties across the board, but they had never been bad men. That was the important part.
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