sweet dreams till sunbeams find you, sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
'So maybe stop going to war. It doesn't sound as if you were ever any good at it.' Safrin says with a dismissive shrug. "Is that what you know how to do? Or was it a roll you were placed into, and now it's just a thing you've experienced? Because from what I see in your mind—" She taps his forehead lightly. "—are failed plans. Invasions, grand notions of tents and wolves, peace offered that no one was interested in. Just because no one around you had any better ideas, does not make yours good by default."
Harsh words perhaps, but there was enormous amounts of scar tissue to cut through before the goddess could find anything workable beneath.
"There it is." She whispers as his realization finally is able to make its way to the surface. "Your marriage crumbled because you were loathe to put yourself before Amalia. Your friends died and you carried them around like ghosts as a punishment. They are all gone, and do their memory no favours by being a slave to your grief." Sitting up, Safrin folds her hands into her lap.
"I think you force yourself to care so much about others so that you never have to face the fact that they might not care about you in the same way. You don't even care about you, in the same way."
Harsh words perhaps, but there was enormous amounts of scar tissue to cut through before the goddess could find anything workable beneath.
"There it is." She whispers as his realization finally is able to make its way to the surface. "Your marriage crumbled because you were loathe to put yourself before Amalia. Your friends died and you carried them around like ghosts as a punishment. They are all gone, and do their memory no favours by being a slave to your grief." Sitting up, Safrin folds her hands into her lap.
"I think you force yourself to care so much about others so that you never have to face the fact that they might not care about you in the same way. You don't even care about you, in the same way."
but in your dreams whatever they be, dream a little dream of me
