i closed my eyes and saw my father's sins, they covered me like a second skin
i peeled them off, and sure i bled a bit, but now i'm free to sink my own damn ship
i peeled them off, and sure i bled a bit, but now i'm free to sink my own damn ship
He listens to her list out everything in a way that makes sense, in a way that should soothe his fears, but part of him thinks that it feels wrong to do so. It feels wrong to not constantly punish himself, it feels wrong to pretend as though he hadn’t just fucked everything up. She punches his cheek and he tries to offer her a small smile. It feels forced and fake, however, and he drops it quickly.
“I don’t know if he ever will until the war is over.” He admits with a frown, a sharp draw of breath. “He… Went to Safrin before LongNight and she did something to him. And he went to the Voice after to fix it but… The day I came home to tell them what I’ve done, Nate had also became a demigod for the Voice.” His nose twitches slightly as if he’s trying to keep his face as emotionless as possible and that twitch had slipped out. “And I’m the father of a Safrin child.” Lines had been drawn. “And… When I touch him it hurts him. I don’t know if that will ever change.” The only way he knows how to comfort his husband and it had been stolen away. “And all I can think about are the what if’s. I don’t… I don’t know what else I can do. I have to be okay.” He has to be okay because it isn’t just him anymore.
“I have to be okay for Kamaria, but that’s… That’s all, Vai, and it’s... So, so hard.” She knows his spirals, she knows how he gets, and he can’t indulge in those while trying to care for his daughter. And he knows this. “It’s going to kill me if he doesn’t come back.”
“I don’t know if he ever will until the war is over.” He admits with a frown, a sharp draw of breath. “He… Went to Safrin before LongNight and she did something to him. And he went to the Voice after to fix it but… The day I came home to tell them what I’ve done, Nate had also became a demigod for the Voice.” His nose twitches slightly as if he’s trying to keep his face as emotionless as possible and that twitch had slipped out. “And I’m the father of a Safrin child.” Lines had been drawn. “And… When I touch him it hurts him. I don’t know if that will ever change.” The only way he knows how to comfort his husband and it had been stolen away. “And all I can think about are the what if’s. I don’t… I don’t know what else I can do. I have to be okay.” He has to be okay because it isn’t just him anymore.
“I have to be okay for Kamaria, but that’s… That’s all, Vai, and it’s... So, so hard.” She knows his spirals, she knows how he gets, and he can’t indulge in those while trying to care for his daughter. And he knows this. “It’s going to kill me if he doesn’t come back.”
i cut my branch down from my family tree to start a fire in the living room
SUNJATA
Feel free to use magic/force on Sunjata, without killing him <3
Sunjata speaks with an Australian accent and has a passive magic that makes him produce a subtle scent that matches exactly to whatever those around him most desire him to smell like.
