when you bury your pain
"If it makes you feel better, I would barely have noticed you were there," Finn mumbles. The dreamdust would ensure that he slept through almost anything, and peacefully at that. "But I... thank you, Tobi. For considering me. For always considering me." For asking if he's comfortable, for checking that things haven't gone farther than he imagined they would. She's always there for him in that way, and in the back of his head he knows that's precisely the sort of reason you shouldn't get this close with your doctor. And yet... here they are. He doesn't care.
Her hand reaches out across the couch and Finn takes it, more readily than ever before. His hands are cold, and he squeezes her fingers gently, as if to tether them together. You don't have to say it to be kind, he wants to tell her, but when his lips part he can't make the words come. So instead Finn turns overbright eyes back to Tobi and nods once, a silent acceptance of her appraisal.
"Thank you," he mutters. "I... I don't know if..." If I can be a good father. If I can do all the things that fathers are supposed to do. If I know where to start. Finn shrugs helplessly. "But I don't want you to do this alone. I'll be there for you both, as much as I know how to be."
Her hand reaches out across the couch and Finn takes it, more readily than ever before. His hands are cold, and he squeezes her fingers gently, as if to tether them together. You don't have to say it to be kind, he wants to tell her, but when his lips part he can't make the words come. So instead Finn turns overbright eyes back to Tobi and nods once, a silent acceptance of her appraisal.
"Thank you," he mutters. "I... I don't know if..." If I can be a good father. If I can do all the things that fathers are supposed to do. If I know where to start. Finn shrugs helplessly. "But I don't want you to do this alone. I'll be there for you both, as much as I know how to be."
THE SPYGLASS
you only strengthen its roots
