i can't breathe anymore

is it better to be a monster with a heart, or a human without a soul?

my hands are shaking

It felt like a slow death. Painful, aching, until there was nothing that remained. And when the ability of having true fluid to explore ran out and it was entirely synthetic? What would happen to the rest of her? It’s unease that spreads through her frustration, unsettling her and causing her to shift as she sets the papers back on his desk, watching him curiously through a narrowed, sharp gaze.

There’s stillness to her now that isn’t from her Attunement. It’s a stillness of mechanical nature, of gears slowing and stopping, of unblinking and not breathing, no heartbeat to jar her. Until he speaks again, and the pieces start moving and she blinks first, nodding before her gaze drops to her hands. “Chulane and I are going to go to the Grounds, I think.” She says softly, gentler through the rage that still tastes like ash behind her teeth. “I can’t stay in a place that’s devoted to the Old Gods knowing that it only sets me up for disappointment.” She frowns, shaking her head before her gaze lifts to Deimos.

“I wanted to tell you before I left. So you would know.” That she hadn’t simply disappeared, but that she was somewhere, even if it wasn’t in the cold embrace of Halo.

my knuckles are bruised

but i survived

KIADA