[Seasonal Event] Escape From/To You

Samuel Though I know I should know better Well, I can make this work Is it just part of the process? Well, Jesus Christ, Jesus Christ, it hurts He couldn't stay in the Rathskeller. It was too loud, too full; people in there were enjoying themselves while he was busying taking off each bit of himself and examining it, trying to throw away parts only to find out they were necessary. Sometimes he caught a glimpse of Remi and it made him feel so strange he had to begin the process again. Sam felt guilt about how he'd handled things, the now-familiar betrayal, a strange mix of affection and love thrown in as well. It was more than he'd ever had to deal with at one point and it was taking a toll. He wanted nothing more than to be home in his bed, staring at the wall. ..So why couldn't he be? It wasn't that far, and...he had grown braver recently. Perhaps the monsters outside really were fairytales. He knew he was being irrational because of his desperation to leave, but he found himself not caring. Melodramatically, he imagined if he died it would be a good ending to the story and a way to show Remi just how serious he had been. He slipped out of the Rathskeller in the moments of distraction after Ronin's baby began to cry yet again. Walking up into the temple he was struck by how loud his footsteps were on the hard floor in the silence around him. Already the quiet was like a balm on him, and he calmly began to head to the door, hand reaching to begin to unlock the door.