Sah
TW: Grief, loss of children, dark stuff
Sah could tell he'd fucked up. Why he insisted on actually speaking his mind, he'd never know. Maybe it felt too deceitful to keep his worries to himself? But seeing Deimos' reaction, it was clear that he'd have to show greater discretion in the future. If he couldn't speak to Deimos about such things, Lilly was likely the only one that he could.
Sah felt something harden, all emotions leaving his face. "I never stated that Morgan was neutral, only that she had made the claim and that it thus might be able to pressure her into acting favorably. I know what she did Deimos, I was there. I was also there for the aftermath." Each statement made bluntly, factual and cold.
Yet he remained silent as Deimos spoke his word, listening and assessing his views. It was beginning to dawn on Sah just how differently humans perceived wars when they related to gods. Eyeing the Sword emotionlessly the young Outlander tried to at least explain his reasoning one last time.
"I'm well aware of my status Deimos, and the limits that come with it." There was a slight edge now, underneath the ice. "That doesn't mean I can't give a damn about who lives and who dies. Morgan will fail to prepare Halo if left to her own devices. But any underhanded or violent means of removing her will only bring bloodshed. Will only bring the war sooner and will have it start by destroying Halo as a whole. Am I not allowed to care simply because of what I am? And yes, I have no right regarding what Noah does. But I have every right to at least worry when it looks like he's spiraling."
The edge in Sah's voice sharpened, dripping with the blood and tears of a fallen world, "I have only been in Caido for less then two years, yes". And I've already seen the horrific crimes committed by both The Voice and The Old Gods. Neither are innocent, but neither is pure evil. But above all else, they are not my Gods and I will not allow their war to kill what little I have left."
Sah's voice cracked, falling into a whisper. "Is it so wrong to want to minimize bloodshed before the war inevitably breaks out? To want to prevent as many deaths now as possible? Deimos, if I have to watch another child die, I won't survive. I already lost mine. I can't lose anyone else."
Sah could tell he'd fucked up. Why he insisted on actually speaking his mind, he'd never know. Maybe it felt too deceitful to keep his worries to himself? But seeing Deimos' reaction, it was clear that he'd have to show greater discretion in the future. If he couldn't speak to Deimos about such things, Lilly was likely the only one that he could.
Sah felt something harden, all emotions leaving his face. "I never stated that Morgan was neutral, only that she had made the claim and that it thus might be able to pressure her into acting favorably. I know what she did Deimos, I was there. I was also there for the aftermath." Each statement made bluntly, factual and cold.
Yet he remained silent as Deimos spoke his word, listening and assessing his views. It was beginning to dawn on Sah just how differently humans perceived wars when they related to gods. Eyeing the Sword emotionlessly the young Outlander tried to at least explain his reasoning one last time.
"I'm well aware of my status Deimos, and the limits that come with it." There was a slight edge now, underneath the ice. "That doesn't mean I can't give a damn about who lives and who dies. Morgan will fail to prepare Halo if left to her own devices. But any underhanded or violent means of removing her will only bring bloodshed. Will only bring the war sooner and will have it start by destroying Halo as a whole. Am I not allowed to care simply because of what I am? And yes, I have no right regarding what Noah does. But I have every right to at least worry when it looks like he's spiraling."
The edge in Sah's voice sharpened, dripping with the blood and tears of a fallen world, "I have only been in Caido for less then two years, yes". And I've already seen the horrific crimes committed by both The Voice and The Old Gods. Neither are innocent, but neither is pure evil. But above all else, they are not my Gods and I will not allow their war to kill what little I have left."
Sah's voice cracked, falling into a whisper. "Is it so wrong to want to minimize bloodshed before the war inevitably breaks out? To want to prevent as many deaths now as possible? Deimos, if I have to watch another child die, I won't survive. I already lost mine. I can't lose anyone else."
My soul is in the sky
-William Shakespeare
-William Shakespeare
