Lean Time For Heroes

"Well...I w-would like to...to think I matter more than someone who th-thinks you're stupid. And I think you're br-brave." Sam whispered over Remi's lips before going in to kiss him softly, hoping that he would at least take of the words to heart. Because they were mostly true. He did admire Remi's bravery but he also feared it, suspected it would be the thing to drive them apart eventually even as it tugged him towards Remi right now. Sam tried to remember what the book had said but before he could say Remi brought up slapping and he looked down shamefully. He had regretted that since he had done it, had seen the origins of that behaviour in his childhood and been disgusted that it had taken any kind of root in him. "I am...sorry. V-very sorry. For how I re-reacted. I will never d-do it again. I just...I was mad and I didn't know h-how to...get it out. But that wasn't th-the right way." But Remi had asked him a question, so he tried to answer it properly: "Maybe...we sho-should try to see each other often, but we al...already do that. And no g-getting attacked by bears. And...hm. Maybe we should..." Sam looked up at the ceiling, suddenly embarrassed, then leaned forward to rest his face against Remi's neck. "We...sh-should probably talk about. What we want um...in...you know, in...in bed." He had been perfectly content with what had happened so far, but it had occurred to Sam that they had gone from pretty vanilla to 'beastly angel fucking in the temple' awfully quickly, and he wanted to know if this was going to be the new normal. Samuel I'm starting to wake from silent sleep I'm starting to break and I can grieve