S A M U E L
Sam had been content with the pace of his and Remi's new relationship until the meeting in the temple headed by Jigano. The meeting had put into his mind things he had tried to leave aside; thoughts of the inevitably soon attack on the spire and potential fall of the barrier. He had wanted to never think of them again, hope they just wouldn't happen for some reason or another...but when he was in the temple listening to everyone's thoughts and plans, it was too real.
Remi had promised him they would travel together...but not the Remi who was there now.
The Remi who sat next to him had made no such vow, had never even heard of the idea. The Remi who sat next to him now had the justifications to just leave without telling Sam at all if the barrier fell the next day. After all, they were tentatively friends. A little bit of flirting and a nice flight did not love make.
Or perhaps, not for Remi. All the last couple of weeks had done for Sam was confirm his feelings. Remi was different now, new, yet he still found his heart tugged this way and that by him, his thoughts filled with the other man's eyes. He still wished to lay next to Remi and reach into him, cradle his heart, have his heart be cradled; he wanted to be loved.
He had never been loved.
Not wanting to let his one chance go so easy, Sam stopping Remi from leaving the meeting once it was finished with a tap of his shoulder, pointed to a corner of the temple. "Remi...could we talk for a moment? There's something I need to tell you."
I AM THE OCEAN CLAWING AT YOUR MOON
