when it's dark out

Sohalia

Sohalia liked to think of herself as a cheerful sort of person. She was always full of light, and laughter, and fun. She hardly ever cried. She couldn't remember the last time she'd been angry - or even mildly inconvenienced.

But sometimes... sometimes, she could be sad.

Today was just one of those days. She woke to a cloudy sky to find tears already on her cheeks. She'd been dreaming about home again, and for a moment before she'd opened her eyes, she'd been convinced that she would wake to find her parents making breakfast, or Akiko banking a fire in the hearth. It felt so real that when she'd opened her eyes to find it to be her imagination, she couldn't help but cry.

She had enjoyed her wanderings, truly - but sometimes she was just so lonely. She'd no family left in the world, and she had precious few friends, most of whom were busy living their own lives. Sometimes it could feel as though she was the only person in the world.

It was mostly her own fault, of course, wandering around as she was wont to do. How was she supposed to make and keep friends if she never stayed in one place for more than a week or two? but some days were harder than others, and today... was just one of those days.

and that's the hope I have
the only thing I know that's keeping me alive