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Sohalia

Don't try to wake me up
Even if the sun really does come out tomorrow

Nothing felt real. It was as though Soh was floating in a trance, taking her bag and stepping back, away from the man she loved more than anything else in the world because her actions had ruined things. Gods, was she cursed? It seemed like she couldn't stop hurting the people she cared about - and that was something that was solely on her shoulders.

"Okay," she whispered. "Just - be safe. I love you." And as he stepped away without so much as an embrace, she let go of his hand, feeling very much like she was letting go of him. She wanted to scream, wanted to cry, wanted to beg him to stay, to take it all back and pretend like nothing had ever happened. But it was too late for that.

And then he left. Without a goodbye, without an 'I love you,' without any of the usual things, and Soh whirled on her heel and fumbled with the doorknob, suddenly desperate to be inside, where she could have a breakdown in peace. Her breaths were coming too quickly, and her heart was beating too hard, and she couldn't think past the recurring refrain of what have I done.

And when she made it into the shop, she closed the door behind her, sank to the floor, and began to sob.

-FIN-

Don't believe anything you say anymore
In the morn, in the morning