Reaching High

now there's a space too wide

"But it isn't.." Remi interjected, eyes kind and the smile on his lips understanding. "When my memories were taken, it must have been difficult for you. To lose me because of a mistake. I know my apologies did little, and this must have been what it was like. A clean slate, as you say. But that is not this. I did not chose to lose you. But you chose to forget me." Swallowing down the lump in his throat, still the alchemist offered Sam a smile, as if he was trying to soften the blow of his words, despite the fact that it was he who had been wounded.

Gently Remi shook his head, care evident in the way he winced and sighed sadly. "No. Not desperate." The way Sam seemed to want to tie the situation up with a ribbon to be placed next to any other romance novel made Remi's heart plead unhappily. "Even without my memories..knowing that I loved you was almost enough. Enough to make up what it was like. Enough to forgive you for rushing me passed where I was comfortable and needing more than I could give." Glancing up with a desperate sort of weariness now, Remi bit the inside corner of his lip, brows furrowed in a silent plea to be understood.

"But you loved me, and still you did this." He continued softly, eyes falling. "I do not know how to...to do anything with you now. I will never look at you and not see that man. You could not tell me you loved me a second time, without the implications that you might well decide the same thing again." Then, perhaps more bitterly than he meant, he added: "You wrote loving me was educational. You..." His shoulders slumped with defeat. "..said I was an obligation."

that's left us with wondering eyes

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