disturbed

all our lives i watched you search beneath the fallen skies

"She said she would leave you alone...I suppose that does not mean much." Remi muttered.

Instinctively Remi reached out for Ronin, feeling all of a sudden the need to keep his lover close. A hand rested against the hunter's hip as the alchemist forced a half-hearted smile. "Help me...ahhh...." Unsure quite how to say what it was he so desperately needed, Remi tilted his head back slightly and sighed, annoyed at his imprecise use of language. "Help me say no. Help me...I don't know, understand whatever strength you say I have. I grew up in the back of a wagon, beaten by a man who could not even spell his own name. I was raised to follow orders, to take what I was given and to just...be alright with how the world was. I never tried to change it because that was not the lot I was given. I did not think it was up to me to even think otherwise. But now..."

Biting his lip hard, hard enough to make himself wince, he fixed Ronin with a stare as sure and determined as any he had before. "..I do not want to be a puppet. I do not want to be used."