a word that i can't forget.

as the sun waits to eclipse, and the taste teases my lips,

   Due? No, she... she hadn't been gone that long had she? She had estimated it being around six months---had she truly been lost out there so long? She took a shaky breath and looked down to her abdomen. Ashe was painfully thin, and she found that her heart was slowing with the logic Phoebe presented her.

   "Ware you around in Northaven, when the Grand Healer had twins, and she didn't even know she was pregnant until they arrived? Roana had delivered them." Ashe shook her head. It had been an insane, absurd situation, but it was certainly memorable. "Surely I'm not... like that."

   Phoebe seemed so sure, so confident that pregnancy wasn't the case. Ashe swallowed, rolling through a rapid change of relief, of grief, of want, of more relief. Not without Kalt. She couldn't do it without him. She wasn't sure she could do it at all. Still, she nodded and glanced back to the friendly dragon, giving Prim a weak smile as she leaned slowly back to rest her head over his warm scales.

   Ashe glanced out the window and internally cringed, the shadows of night still pressing in. "This was a fucking stupid reason to wake you," she said by way of apology.

I'm too tired to wrestle with it. will we burn or will we repent?