strayed a bit too far

maybe i'm a runaway train, maybe i'm a feather in a hurricane

but maybe that's a good thing

"Honestly...I..." Tugging on his lower lip, the alchemist fixes the baker with a thoughtful stare. His pause isn't evidence of his lack of trust, merely his addled mind on this particular subject. "I have not thought about it much, only because were I to decide that I did...I am not sure it is even possible. Ludo is..perhaps much of a friend of mine these days. I did say I would help with LongNight though, as an apology and to make amends." But of course, that isn't answering her question.

"Memories of my mother? Certainly. Of Ianto? Sam? Loren?" His smile wavers, as does his heart. "On the one hand I wonder what it could bring, other than pain. To remember how much I loved them and the time we had together, knowing that it is just...gone. And not only gone but..My lack of memories contributed a good deal to Ianto and I not being together. Sam...that was part of it, but not a small part." And because the writer of this post has no idea about any timelines, Remi says nothing about Loren. Ruffling a hand through his curls, the alchemist sighs. "But then..it is like a part of me is gone. A part that others have in bits and pieces and reflections. But it was mine. It was me and I feel...empty somehow, without them."

With a much easier shrug, the alchemist hums a note of consideration. "Honestly, I am not sure. I knew nothing of magic before. For us though, the shapechangers, we were given cuffs to wear. It was as much to identify us as the lowly commoners we were, but anything you had with you when you shifted would be magically transported. I suppose that was rather handy."

Remi

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