stained starlight

cut up our losses into doable doses

ration our tears and sighs

Like a ghost burning bright, Ronin descended and Remi felt his heart catch. It was the overwhelming surge of love for the hunter that would ultimately be his undoing. Thoughts of senseless violence all fled as he caught sight of his husband, something inside of the alchemist forever releasing in the face of the knowledge that, if given the chance again, he'd likely do it all the same.

And so it was that Remi found himself forever changed.

Sluggish in his movements, for a moment the alchemist merely let himself be held, be pulled close, be warmed by a body with infection-levels of heat to spare. Not realizing he had been holding his breath until his vision began to blur and his knees threatened to give out did Remi exhale, though rather than a controlled stream it was a mangled and wounded cry. Though Remi pressed his face against Ronin's shoulder, it wouldn't last, for soon the alchemist's knees did in fact give out and he found himself sliding down his husband into a heap at his feet. Head against whatever part of Ronin he could latch himself onto, not unlike Aoife had done to them both earlier, Remi found himself entirely empty of words.

He couldn't ask what they had done, for he knew.

He couldn't say he wouldn't do it again, because he would.

He couldn't say he was sorry, because he wasn't.

Terrified, worried, mad with the knowledge of how little everything seemed to matter in the wake of Ronin's impending death? Yes, but that wasn't new information.

And so, with a voice he found hard to locate he mumbled, "I love you so much", before tears closed his throat and eyes entirely.

Remi

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