PHOEBE
Let you go and the lonely in
To take my heart again
To take my heart again
”Well if I don’t start begging soon, I’m going to start collecting cats.” she snarked at him. But she sighed, relenting, even if it all was a joke. ”I suppose it wouldn’t. So doubtful whoever Mr. Right is isn’t someone who has been around the whole time. Or ever.” she grumbled.
She didn’t press Remi about his relationships with women and what they had or hadn’t meant. She could surmise, knowing how secretive he had to have been back home, where a man loving a man romantically simply wasn’t allowed. ”I thought that was what I was doing with Jata the first time, but he wanted to stay and so I let him.” she said quietly. Casual clearly was not something she was good at either. She wanted a deeper connection – she wanted more than just a good romp in the sheets. She wanted a partner, like Remi had in Ronin, to walk through the good and bad times with. But she wouldn’t fault Frey for thinking it unnecessary, because from their perspective it was absolutely true. ”All I’ve ever wanted and focused on was finding a husband and having children though. So maybe I should just…give up and find something else to focus on.” Perhaps it was a harsh way to put it, but she felt rather like she was beating her head against the wall.
She didn’t press Remi about his relationships with women and what they had or hadn’t meant. She could surmise, knowing how secretive he had to have been back home, where a man loving a man romantically simply wasn’t allowed. ”I thought that was what I was doing with Jata the first time, but he wanted to stay and so I let him.” she said quietly. Casual clearly was not something she was good at either. She wanted a deeper connection – she wanted more than just a good romp in the sheets. She wanted a partner, like Remi had in Ronin, to walk through the good and bad times with. But she wouldn’t fault Frey for thinking it unnecessary, because from their perspective it was absolutely true. ”All I’ve ever wanted and focused on was finding a husband and having children though. So maybe I should just…give up and find something else to focus on.” Perhaps it was a harsh way to put it, but she felt rather like she was beating her head against the wall.
