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Jigano seemed to be asking the right questions, or at least the ones that were thought provoking. It made Oliver question all of his intentions. "Well...there's a lot of things it can do. I don't know, but it sounds so freeing to be able to turn into an animal. And...I don't know how to put it into words, but it's just a feeling inside me. The moment you said that I could do it, me, it just felt like something was right. There was this feeling inside of me that said: yes, do this. This is what you should do." Oliver couldn't find the words. Maybe that meant it was him finding an escape or maybe he truly wanted it. He wouldn't be sure, but he could hope that Jigano could make sense of it. The news of Sunjata being unhappy wasn't something Oliver wanted to hear. He knew about the disappearance of Lusea and it had worried him. Shaking his head, Oliver let out a deep sigh. "Guess I'll have to go talk with him...but I do think that this will make me happier, at least." Talking with Sunjata would hopefully come soon, once the two were able to sit down alone and figure out what the hell was going on. Also: Sunjata had a panther form?! Oliver knew Caido was dangerous, he had seen the bones of those lost during LongNight. "As well as they mean, I wish they'd talk with me like I were an equal, not like I'm some stupid person who's so far below them that they don't need to show an ounce of respect. I try to respect people...and I'm sorry that I haven't been the most respectful towards you." He ran a hand through his hair and leaned back. Finally he had started to calm back down a bit. He had run out of steam and now felt extremely ashamed for how he had been behaving. "I feel like I need to be someone extremely mature, which I know I'm not. I don't know, everyone here knows exactly what they're doing. They have talents, they have memories that they've learned from. They have learned how to use their abilities to better the society....but me? I got nothing. Therefore, people only view me for all my mistakes. I have done nothing redeemable to make them view me as anything better." OLIVER i saw that my life was a vast glowing empty page and i could do anything i wanted