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Oliver chose to move on past the apologies. Everything was fine on both of their ends and they could simply relax and calm down. He wasn't exactly sure how helpful Jigano's next words were. Oliver knew that he shouldn't change himself for others, that much was abundantly clear. However, how was he supposed to stop himself from trying to achieve it? It was something he did often without really realizing it. "How do I stop myself from changing for others? How do I know the difference between learning from mistakes or changing to reach unrealistic expectations?" In other words: how does he tell what's a problem and what's someone looking at him for something that he is not. It was a jumble of words that Oliver could hardly string into a sentence. The blonde listened as Jigano went on about the gods. Long had he decided that Ludo was someone he should pray to yet, not until he felt like he had a stronger chance of receiving a good interaction. Ludo was playful and Oliver wasn't ready to have his few memories played with. That left him between deciding between Frey and Safrin. However, Jigano seemed to have a strong distaste towards Safrin. Interesting... "I've prayed to both Safrin and Frey before...Frey I left them some bread and apples and Safrin I went with Sunjata, both times I received no response." Oliver informed Jigano, searching for a reaction or any advice the man could give based on these new details. "Why...why shouldn't I personally go to Safrin? I've heard what great things she has done for others...I mean, Frey has also done incredible things." The man let out a huff and leaned back, staring off into space. Gods was this hard to decide. How was he supposed to figure out which one would be the best to go to. There was a blush on his face as Oliver looked back at Jigano. "I'm not really sure how to decide." He was blushing at the thought of what Jigano suggested with Frey, contemplating whether that would even be an option. Imagine just doing that only to have someone randomly walk in. "Based on what you know about me so far....who do you think would be most willing to turn me into an attuned?" OLIVER i saw that my life was a vast glowing empty page and i could do anything i wanted