in the right heaven-yellow light, anything could be
holy enough to save you
Amalia remains quiet while she looks and Rexanna explains the Reaper she knew. And while Amalia looks, she continues her story, pausing only when she thinks that perhaps she might have spoken too much that Amalia hadn’t gotten her questions in – because she can’t see, can’t understand the shifts in Amalia’s face, in the way her hands pause as she grasps for the clear stone, the way she regards Rexanna in wonder if she should hand over the stone.And the question makes her pause, herself, head aimed toward the ground. She supposes she should have expected it was coming. And she doesn’t think she can get away with lying to Amalia, the Shield of Safrin, Deimos’ lover. She inhales deeply, exhaling quietly as she lifts her head to Amalia, a soft frown finding her face as she figures out how to put it. Unlike Wessex, a dear friend of hers, a sister of sorts, Rexanna was far more apologetic for the events that occurred, but she had also been trapped by the tree for a majority of the fight.
She had done very little in comparison.
“I was there.” She begins, frown deepening, hands folded in her lap as she sits on the rock. “I didn’t help to kill the Fae, I was trapped by the roots of the Mathair.” She sighs, figuring out how the best way to put it was. She regretted the lives lost, but they hadn’t known about the Spire portal, she had been blinded by the mountains she saw within, the possibilities. “I regret what happened, but as soon as we had arrived, Lucas had shot the tree and it fought back before the Fae arrived. The Fae had fire when they did arrive.” A pause as she contemplates it. “I was blinded by the mountains I saw through the portal… I wanted Kiada to have something as close to the Basin as we could get. I was selfish and I wanted so badly to do something for her, to give her something when I had done such awful things.”
She doesn't blame Amalia if she doesn't give the stone to her. At this point she doesn't know if she deserves it anyway.
REXANNA
