am i running through that mind of yours at all?
i have big ideas for you and me
Old habits. Old habits. She almost snorts to this, keeping him held tight, locked down until she’s sure he won’t crumble as soon as she lets go. She knows him, knows him well enough that she could give him all sorts of information, all kinds of advice, and he wouldn’t take it. He’d pretend, like she does, to understand and hear, but when the heat of the moment arises, when feelings and emotions override the rationality, they’re back in the same places they were before.
Strange how that works out.
But the comment takes her somewhat off guard, asking what they should do instead. And well, she can’t really give a solid answer to that. Because she’d been struggling with that very same question all of her life. “We protect those closest to us, our family.” Because there’s no way that this talk of sacrifice and selfless tendencies would ever work when it came to family. But others? “We train the others, we give them all the tools they need. And then we trust they do the right thing, the smart thing.” Give them all the tools and if they perish, would it have made a difference if they had been there instead?
Strange how that works out.
But the comment takes her somewhat off guard, asking what they should do instead. And well, she can’t really give a solid answer to that. Because she’d been struggling with that very same question all of her life. “We protect those closest to us, our family.” Because there’s no way that this talk of sacrifice and selfless tendencies would ever work when it came to family. But others? “We train the others, we give them all the tools they need. And then we trust they do the right thing, the smart thing.” Give them all the tools and if they perish, would it have made a difference if they had been there instead?
i feel lucky, with the worst luck
that i met you when I felt messed up
REXANNA
