Love mends even the broken parts
Loren was quiet for a long time, in both his mind and body. Then he dredged up memories of his childhood. The fear of failing, and being punished, lashed with magic by those who said they loved him; the silent terror of crying silently in his cell, knowing if he got caught that he’d be hurt more, so he kept his tears as soft as he could manage; somehow worst of all, the sense that he was wrong, that he’d never be enough, that he was useless and worthless and a waste of time and space.
The mental link was thrown wide open, though he didn’t know how much Remi caught. Still, even though it stung less now, remembering it was horrible enough that the honey badger found himself snarling. I do not want another child, another person, to suffer as I did. Then he did his best to banish the dark thoughts.
Unfortunately, he grew sorrowful as the other man’s feelings trickled over. As Remi closed his eyes, the Launceleyn looked away again. It was painful for all of you, though, wasn’t it? Still not able to meet the other man’s gaze, Loren pawed at the ground. So what are you all planning to do?” His thoughts were uncertain, and fingers of fear crept down his spine. It mixed together with the guilt already churning in his gut. I didn’t.
A spark of annoyance flared, though Loren did his best throttle it down. Did you miss the part where Zariah threatened to kill me? And disowned me already? Then, though, the ugly emotions bled out of him with the mental equivalent of a sigh. Remi. I know. But that doesn’t mean his choice doesn’t hurt me. He sent a pulse of resigned agreement. I’ve already spoken to Peter, though not since Zariah returned and he and I have already resolved to try and heal from our pasts and forge a better path. I will try to talk to Neron though. It was clear that the summoner had his doubts about that conversation though.
As the other man’s hands rubbed the honey badger’s muscles, he let out a contented sound and nuzzled against Remi’s knee. However, the budding joy disappeared, though Loren remained where he was. Just because something happened a long time ago doesn’t mean it hurts any less. We both know that. There was an apology in feeling that accompanied those words.
The mental link was thrown wide open, though he didn’t know how much Remi caught. Still, even though it stung less now, remembering it was horrible enough that the honey badger found himself snarling. I do not want another child, another person, to suffer as I did. Then he did his best to banish the dark thoughts.
Unfortunately, he grew sorrowful as the other man’s feelings trickled over. As Remi closed his eyes, the Launceleyn looked away again. It was painful for all of you, though, wasn’t it? Still not able to meet the other man’s gaze, Loren pawed at the ground. So what are you all planning to do?” His thoughts were uncertain, and fingers of fear crept down his spine. It mixed together with the guilt already churning in his gut. I didn’t.
A spark of annoyance flared, though Loren did his best throttle it down. Did you miss the part where Zariah threatened to kill me? And disowned me already? Then, though, the ugly emotions bled out of him with the mental equivalent of a sigh. Remi. I know. But that doesn’t mean his choice doesn’t hurt me. He sent a pulse of resigned agreement. I’ve already spoken to Peter, though not since Zariah returned and he and I have already resolved to try and heal from our pasts and forge a better path. I will try to talk to Neron though. It was clear that the summoner had his doubts about that conversation though.
As the other man’s hands rubbed the honey badger’s muscles, he let out a contented sound and nuzzled against Remi’s knee. However, the budding joy disappeared, though Loren remained where he was. Just because something happened a long time ago doesn’t mean it hurts any less. We both know that. There was an apology in feeling that accompanied those words.
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