Where do I go from here?

M  A   E    A I talked to God to no avail Said, "If you won't save me, please don't waste my time." Maea nodded. Slowly, gradually, she was starting to relax. The topics they chose were not easy, nor light, but the tone of the conversation was. There was no pressure, no urgency, and no focus on her until she chose there to be, and it was... soothing. No wonder they had chosen Rex to lead, she mused. She was a calming presence, a voice of reason, and seemed to have a natural sense of what was needed to make someone relax. It had always been easy to talk to her, Maea recalled, and the advice she gave even now was sound. "They can try. But knowing the people here, I wonder who'd be absorbing whom in the end, she commented dryly. "Have the tension between Outlanders and Naturals eased at all? I've only heard people talk about the Fiat Lux and the Temple so far, it's overshadowed everything else." Finishing off the food, she pushed the crumbles into a neat pile on the plate. Thinking about what normalcy might entail for her, she nodded quietly. Jigano would be the best person to talk to about work, about something to do. But there was one pressing matter than she wasn't sure he could help with, and... well, it was a fundamental one. "I'll do that. But... right now, I have nowhere to stay. My farm, it's... been uninhabited for all this time. The house is ruined." It hurt to say it, and hurt even more when she added, "I don't think I can rebuild it. That I even want to... but without the income from the farm, I have nothing. No funds, no home, no... purpose." Shrugging helplessly she looked up at Rexanna. Was a Loreseeker position enough to put food on her table? Was it enough to give her an actual table to put anything on? At this moment, the only things Maea owned were the clothes on her back and what few things she would be able to scavange from the ruins of her home. It wasn't something she felt she could go to her Provost with. Loreseekers should be strong and capable, right? Look after themselves so they could help others.