Someday, yes. If things ever calm down enough for me to go back to practicing, he admitted, tone a little wistful. They both knew how unlikely it was for things to calm down. Ever since the barrier had fallen it had felt like they were rushing from one catastrophe to the next, with never more than a week or three in between to recover and simply live. They were always preparing for something awful or cleaning up the remains of something else that had gone wrong. He could understand Loren's exhaustion and desire to leave it all behind...
But he also remembered the guilt and misery they had both felt when they'd returned from their illnesses to discover how much of the world had moved past without them. His had only been for a few short weeks, too. He knew Loren's frustration had to be so much worse for missing entire seasons.
But at least he had found someone to be with, to help him move past Remi - romantically at least - and to bring him some sense of joy? Except there was little of joy in Loren's tone, and far more ambivalence than Jigano would have expected from someone who cared so fiercely for the alchemist even after the relationship was long-since ended. Does he make you happy? the dragon asked softly, uncertain what the answer would be when there was so much guilt flavoring the mental link.
He watched the goose angle down, curiosity piqued, but at the sight of the ursur he rumbled a warning at it and kept flying as Loren rejoined him, considering the hope the sphere represented. We'll try it, then. It felt strange, being the one with the connection to Remi when he and the alchemist had only just begun to build a fragile friendship between them, while others who had known the alchemist longer and far more intimately, did not. The gods truly could be cruel at times, even without meaning to, and he sent a pulse of reassurance to his feathered friend. What is it? he asked softly again of the fear he felt from the other man, having a guess as to why, but wanting to make sure he wasn't misunderstanding.
But he also remembered the guilt and misery they had both felt when they'd returned from their illnesses to discover how much of the world had moved past without them. His had only been for a few short weeks, too. He knew Loren's frustration had to be so much worse for missing entire seasons.
But at least he had found someone to be with, to help him move past Remi - romantically at least - and to bring him some sense of joy? Except there was little of joy in Loren's tone, and far more ambivalence than Jigano would have expected from someone who cared so fiercely for the alchemist even after the relationship was long-since ended. Does he make you happy? the dragon asked softly, uncertain what the answer would be when there was so much guilt flavoring the mental link.
He watched the goose angle down, curiosity piqued, but at the sight of the ursur he rumbled a warning at it and kept flying as Loren rejoined him, considering the hope the sphere represented. We'll try it, then. It felt strange, being the one with the connection to Remi when he and the alchemist had only just begun to build a fragile friendship between them, while others who had known the alchemist longer and far more intimately, did not. The gods truly could be cruel at times, even without meaning to, and he sent a pulse of reassurance to his feathered friend. What is it? he asked softly again of the fear he felt from the other man, having a guess as to why, but wanting to make sure he wasn't misunderstanding.
