half human, half machine

Nate

Nate weighed his words very carefully before sending them, wanting to be gentle, but also wanting Sam to be sure of what he was getting into. ”You know I wasn’t those things before here, before you, right? I mean,” He laughs, unable to finish the sentence with a straight face, ”I was strong and handsome. Not the other things though.”

And even though it was literally a world away, Nate knew how easy it could be to slip into that old life again, how naturally it could come to him. It wasn’t something he wanted Sam in, tame as it might end up being in Caido. The ginger man was too gentle for a life like that. And, more concerning, not that he’d admit it: Nate had never actually been in a real relationship. He’d had beards, to keep his dad happy, and flings, none of which lasted more than a week. Sam was talking about a real commitment.

And that terrified him.

So let's face it this was never what you wanted
But I know it's fun to pretend

Now blank stares and empty threats
Are all I have, they're all I have