Let's Try This Again

"I am too. I..." Sam sighed, shaking his head. "I know I made a mistake, really. But it was all so fast, all so--I'm not....I don't want to keep excusing myself because I'm bad at talking to people, but I just--I didn't know what to do. I never seem to choose the right option." The little confession surprised him as much as it would Jigano, but it was all true enough, words that had been kept in his mind for a while now. "Now...I fear Remi will never forgive me, and I'll have deserved it. Even if he did hit me first." Picking at the edge of the table, he wondered why it was he never seemed to have many nice conversation topics anymore. "Yes, cheated. With a patient. The Voice gave him the ability to diagnose from a bite, and, ha, well-" Sam looked up with a bitter smile on his face. "I told him, I said: 'Nathaniel, it's going to be too tempting', but he assured me it wasn't going to lead to anything. That he was professional." Removing his hand from the table he smacked it hard as a fist into the palm of his other. "I was stupid. The second he could bite someone he...well, I don't know what they did. But it was enough for him to look guilty when he came home." Samuel He took a step but then felt tired He said, I'll rest a little while But when he tried to walk again He wasn't a child