help me, i'm drowning

i've seen fire & i've seen rain.
i've seen sunny days that i thought would never end

Perhaps it was because Remi had held off for so very, very long. He'd never been in drunken brawls, never given into youthful outbursts of testosterone. He'd toed the line his entire life, always staying on the right side of the good and lawful. Now he was too powerful for his own good, his tongue too sharp and his mind too slow to know the damage he was capable of. But gods if Ronin wasn't right. It was so very easy.

"Certainly not. " The alchemist agreed with a small huff of dry laughter. "But I can't keep living like this. We can't keep living like this." Reaching down for Ronin's hand, the alchemist would slowly open the hunter's fingers to reveal his wedding ring. Running his thumb against it, he swallowed hard, eyes rising to find Ronin's. "I have to try something Ronin."

Don't I?