help me, i'm drowning

i've seen fire & i've seen rain.
i've seen sunny days that i thought would never end

"I never promised you an easy or a quiet life." Remi laughed, gasping for air as new tears poured from his eyes and a happy sort of sob shuddered out of him. He leaned forward to kiss the space beneath Ronin's eyes where the skin was soft and stretched, the line where the hair on his face faded away into his cheek, his top lip, before wrapping his arms around him even more tightly and pressing his forehead down against Ronin's shoulder.

"I miss her so much." Remi whispered, his voice edging towards a whimper (not that he cared anymore). "I don't want to let the grief go because I feel like it's all that I have left of her..but I know I have to. It just...it feels like forgetting." He admitted at last. It was the real reason Remi had been so content to burn and destroy. To do anything else was to admit that she was gone, really gone.