all that was me, is gone

"I said I didn't want to think of her...I didn't want anything to remind me of her.." The alchemist said through lips suddenly gone quite dry and a throat on the verge of collapse. Gods he already knew he'd been selfish, but to let her die all over again, by burying her memory and letting it go like the smoke from her pyre? To say that Remi winced at the memory was an understatement, the blush on his cheeks making him look like he'd been slapped. This was how he'd been led to his near-death by Ludo before, but clever as he was, Remi was not a quick learner. Walking as a man next to this ghost-eyed child seemed...ill-fitting. There was a genuineness that Remi's scarred and sad body lacked when compared to Ludo, and so he shifted. It was not into something new, powerful, or cute. It was into feathers and the smallest of his forms that he found himself, gliding on near-soundless wings as a hawk behind Ludo. REMI I wish I could discover something that doesn't expire