PHOEBE
Let you go and the lonely in
To take my heart again
To take my heart again
"It's probably a good thing you're not a good Launceleyn from what I hear." she said dryly, shrugging her shoulders a bit. "But I bet you still know how to be disciplined in doing something if you want to from it. Right?" she said, glancing over at him briefly. It was hard from anyone to fully pull away from the way in which they were raised. To have been raised with values like that, certainly some of it had stuck.
She was quiet for a moment as she stared up, the canopy swaying slightly from the alcohol affecting her vision. "That's how it was with Emmett. It was the sort of storybook sort of love. But we were both new at it, and young, and ultimately it couldn't survive the harshness of reality." she said softly, expressionless as she stared at the sky. "But I am trying to not be the person I was then, that didn't love him rightly, in hopes that when another love comes along, I don't repeat those errors." she said, tilting her head to look at him again. "And...don't get me wrong, I understand wanting to seek out physical affection to soothe the ache...but in the long run you're probably just delaying actually dealing with Abasi's death. Feel the pain. Be heartbroken. Mourn him. But...avoid the self-destructive behaviors. It doesn't help anything."
She was quiet for a moment as she stared up, the canopy swaying slightly from the alcohol affecting her vision. "That's how it was with Emmett. It was the sort of storybook sort of love. But we were both new at it, and young, and ultimately it couldn't survive the harshness of reality." she said softly, expressionless as she stared at the sky. "But I am trying to not be the person I was then, that didn't love him rightly, in hopes that when another love comes along, I don't repeat those errors." she said, tilting her head to look at him again. "And...don't get me wrong, I understand wanting to seek out physical affection to soothe the ache...but in the long run you're probably just delaying actually dealing with Abasi's death. Feel the pain. Be heartbroken. Mourn him. But...avoid the self-destructive behaviors. It doesn't help anything."
